Struggling with Loss

Even though I have not experienced a failed pregnancy, does not mean I have not experienced loss. Infertility loss encompasses so much more than one thinks, or can ever imagine. Have you lost something or someone every month for a year? Twelve losses a year; yet still wake up each day, put on a smile for the world because that is what they expect.

I have always dreamed of becoming a mother. I can imagine myself sitting in a rocking chair, holding my growing belly while my miracle flutters inside. I see myself staring around at the finished nursery set for my bundle of joy. I rock and enjoy the silence before my bundle arrives knowing life couldn't be more perfect; but each month that doesn't happen, I experience loss.

The loss of the dream to become a mother.

The loss of making my husband a father.

As the months drag on and that very dream becomes further away, I experience loss.
The loss of hope it can ever happen.

The sparkle of hope that this dream could ever become a reality slowly fades until one day it is only an ember. The next day it could just be a pile of gray ash filled with broken dreams.

Do not minimize someone's feelings just because the loss they experience isn't physical. Emotional loss is just as tolling.