What Dreams Are Made Of

Some days I wish I could go back to when my dreams came true from wishing on the stars. Back to the time where seemingly anything I dreamed of could be granted by blowing out some candles, which sometimes with those trick candles was quite the task. Recently life has made it clear not all dreams are granted so easily. I unfortunately cannot just ask Santa Clause to grant my biggest wish of all, to become a mother. Unlike that wonderful Fleet Farm catalog (that was actually Santa's workshop) they don't send out build your own family deals in a catalog. I have yet to met a genie in a bottle who will pop out and grant me three wishes, if you ever do see one, please let me know! 

Okay, for real though, what would life be like if we could all just wish on stars for anything we wanted? Make a wish, go to bed and in the morning it would come true...? Would it mean that each year you would earn one extra candle wish on your birthday? One extra potential dream come true? Which honestly, what an ironic thing, blowing out the light and the burning fire would bring to me the things I had always wanted or never knew I needed.
If life always so easily granted our dreams, they would lose meaning. I have found the best dreams in life are those we work hard for. Those we pour our heart and soul into and can stand proud and tall at the end of it all. Wish for the strength to keep making your dreams come true. 

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